16:05 November 27th, 2016. As luck would have it, after running 10,000+ steps on the treadmill last night I was unable to get any sleep. Yes, as in, none, zero, zilch. Not a single second of sleep until about 9:00am this morning. And even then I only slept until 1:00pm. So roughly 3.5 hours of decent sleep. And I even tried to use a swig or two of Nyquil to assist with my sleep issues. Guess what, it didn’t do a damn thing. I don’t know what it is about my body but even Nyquil was unable to bring me down.
Moving on, I woke up this afternoon and after about an hour of being getting my brain adjusted to being awake yet completely sleep deprived (reminds me of the “good ole days” of Adderall when it stopped having any effect on me). I eventually mustered up the motivation to get on the treadmill and run. My logic was that if I ran enough and got tired enough EARLY enough in the day, instead of at 10:00pm, then I would be tired enough to get a good night’s sleep tonight. We will see how that works out.
On this day I offered up 12,302 steps and a downpour of sweat as a tribute to the anti-Adderall gods (the old and the new). I raised my fist in defiance of Lord Adderall. For it is said that thou who is weak and feeble will walk in the valley of AdderHELL for the rest of his/her days. A wondering nomad, lost and blinded by a manufactured god. I have become a heretic of the Adderall congregation. Burning unholy empty pill bottles and prescription notes as I execute my self-exile from all things Adderall.
Withdrawal effects are mainly taking their toll on my ability to focus and think. As in complex problem solving, constructive thinking, and technical analysis. I work in IT, it comes with the territory. I would say that the physical part of this is the easy part. Mind over matter. Never forget that. That was my motto when I quit smoking cigarettes, and it worked. Don’t forget to laugh, it’s only going to get worse.
“To wait for aforementioned dreams time will only tell
Tell that the promised have been failed
Behold your fellow man through centuries of control
Adhering to the decrees of a manufactured god (Adderall)”