Day 5 – Hello Me, Meet the Real Me.

00:46 November 20th, 2016. Just arrived at day 5 of this hellacious journey. I feel angry, easily irritable, I have no desire to do anything that requires any degree of concentration or thinking, and I have a headache that just won’t go away.

My entire body is sore from a kettle bell workout that I did a little over 24 hours from now. Swinging a 25lb kettle bell will exercise muscles that you never knew you had.

I’m finding simple work-related tasks that were once easily accomplished now take an extreme amount of effort just to concentrate and try to focus.

At this point I should let you, the reader, know that I don’t smoke cigarettes, rarely drink alcohol, and for the most part I’ve always had a healthy diet. Let’s say an 85% healthy diet as there has been plenty of room in said diet for donuts, cakes, and cookies. In any case, when I started this process 5 days ago I weighed 101.6 kg (222.66 lbs). As I mentioned in my first post, a major goal of mine was to try and lose weight despite feeling an insatiable hunger. That is where the exercise comes in, you know, the kettle bell workout that damn near killed me.

Adderall withdrawal.

Embrace the suck.

You can’t make this shit up!

Feeling paranoid
True enemy or false friend?
Anxiety’s attacking me, and my hair is getting thin
I’m in trouble for the things I haven’t got to yet
I’m chomping at the bit and my palms are getting wet

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